Welcome to your awareness of The Mansion.
I welcome you here, even though no one really knows what the purpose of The Mansion is, or any of our roles within it, I only know that for some reason I care for you and want to be of service in your early climb through awareness.
We don’t know how many rooms or floors are in The Mansion, we only know that you’ve spent all your time so far within a small living room area of the first floor, only very rarely peaking your eyes down the hallway or up the staircase, and allowing yourself to tune-in to the strange, faded noises off in the distance of those spaces.
Most never explore The Mansion outside of the small room they began in. Many curiously discover they can open the door and peer into other corridors and quarters, and even thrust themselves out the door under certain circumstances, but usually, the first sign of anything outside of their room is highly uncomfortable and sends them right back, never to be curious or question what’s outside again, often fearful when something occasionally comes along to offer the door to be opened to them again.
We wish you safety, and there is no demand, or even encouragement necessarily, for you to explore any of The Mansion. All being’s wishes are respected, unjudged, and seen as highly reasonable, at least, here on the first floor.
There are some who bravely explore the upper floors, but no top floor has ever been reached or even proven to exist, and the magnitudes of strangeness become multiplied unbearably higher as you ascend, and nothing can guarantee your safety or sanity in the higher levels.
Things will become very disorienting at first. The very idea of safety may even become meaningless quite quickly, as none of us in The Mansion have truly discovered what “safety” actually is, just that we enjoy comfort, and that nothing with any sort of form or identity has been able to withstand the highest levels of The Mansion.
Even so, progress continues to be made (at least what we perceive as progress), and some beings in the higher floors believe that with enough exposure and training, you can continue to climb to the heights without completely losing yourself.
To us on the lower floors, it seems unfathomable, but they have obviously explored the most and conditioned their minds to withstand thus far, so we continue to believe in them, as they are much wiser, regarding the mind and sanity within the midst of chaos, than any of us.
If you choose to courageously explore The Mansion, here are a few known tools that seem to be foundational for all levels. Well… being quite frank, there is only one thing that is useful when you start ascending to the highest explored floors.
*Just keep being aware of your breath*
That’s all we can really share. Still, as intimate with the breath as some of our greatest explorers have become, discovering depths and epiphanies of the breath unthinkable and unknowable to us lesser experienced, there is still no living thing that fully comprehends what the breath is. In fact, the most advanced souls assure us that it is incomprehensible. It’s beyond the realm of intelligence and understanding, and will forever remain the great awe imbuing mystery.
It will save you.
Even when it feels like it’s destroying every last part of you, it will save you. Even when you’re convinced your breath is taking you deeper into insanity and annihilation, it will save you. It is the only thing that you can be sure is true. Everything out there will be grabbing for your attention, wanting you to believe it, presenting itself as more real to you than anything you’ve ever experienced, and it will try to divert you from the breath. You will undoubtedly lose yourself within the experience and embody madness through all facets, but even still, the breath is beyond all of it, and will never leave you. Even when an eternity has gone by with you unaware of your breath, the moment your mind catches a glimpse of it again, you can reel yourself back in.
It will only be you out there alone within dimensions that you don’t understand, and it will become more impossible to discern what is you and what isn’t, or whether you even really exist for that matter.
I will try to keep communication with you and remain as helpful as possible as you make your way up, but know that even as early as the second or third floor, you should not trust me. I will at many points impede you and horrify you, and you should understand that nothing can maintain control the higher up you get, and remember to the best of your ability to only trust your breath.
You will often have to deceive yourself in order to keep exploring, and there will be no telling which deceptions you created were here to help you and which are not, or if there really is a difference.
We make new discoveries every day, yet with every new discovery, meaning seems further away. The Mansion is possibly and quite probably infinite. And as far down into madness you think your mind can go, we can safely assure you that it goes infinitely deeper. You don’t have to go too fast. Go up slowly, discombobulate, come back to breath, integrate, ascend higher, repeat. Much easier said than done, but keep it in mind. Fear and overwhelm seem to be part of the process and progress to withstanding ascension.
We acknowledge that there is likely no meaning to any of this existence, as well as acknowledge that we ARE here, and our thirst for exploring more and finding meaning is unquenchable. You will have to come up with your own reasons for carrying on, for being forced to carry on when it becomes quickly apparent that there is no beginning, end, middle, or meaning of any sort, is greatly abominable and impossibly cumbersome, and in that regard, you are a brave hero of immeasurable value to us all. And not necessarily for what you will discover, but more so that we all, on some level, know the impossible burden. We empathize with the seemingly unfair struggle and the infinite sorrow of discomfort that a being must go through in order to continue and gain wisdom of any sort. Your pain is our pain magnified, and we’re all rooting for your happiness and self-realization. We hope that you’ll return to the first floor often to share stories and play with us again. You are, of course, always welcome. We would be delighted to provide a break of safety for you with a soft mattress, warm blankets, a hot cup of tea, all the sweet fruits that you enjoy, and most importantly, friends, connection, and all the hugs we can muster.
We feel your pain, and therefore, we love you.
We understand that in the midsts of the upper floors, even the notion of love is questionable and may not mean anything within the deepest trenches of reality. Perhaps it is also just deception. But it is a strong feeling shared here, and even if it’s not real, you may come back to it if you wish. When existence has crushed you into submission for the time being, we would experience great selfish joy if you choose to deceive yourself once more and come back to us for a while, playing once again in our folly of love and connection.
There is no known exit door, and we have doubt that you chose to be a part of The Mansion by your own complete means and desires. And even if we did choose this for some greater purpose that cannot be seen, we all still experience the heartache of it all.
Trust your breath, and know that, no matter what decisions or non-decisions you choose to make, you are honored and appreciated. No matter how wise and gentle and liberated one’s mindset is, we are still all, to some degree, a slave to something larger with which we have no control, and because of this, any beliefs and actions you take are understandable, and we will always find you extremely precious.
15Kayla Dawn Fredrickson, Tiffany Garres and 13 others
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